It never works out in your favor.
That's basically where I've been for the last eight and a half months.... An incubation period, for sure. Reading over my blog, I figure I have to set the record straight on a few points, for my own mind's clarity. I forget, sometimes, that growth is painful and confusing. But I always seem to come out the other side. For better or for worse, legal or not, I'm married to myself.
I've had a lot going on this year, but nothing that really damaged my root system. Leaves are beginning to sprout again and that's a good thing. I think that my trip to New York (what was that?) helped. It's like that self-help book I own but have never read: Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway. I realized that I am downright terrified of a great many things, but I am also an incredibly adaptable/mutable being. So, fear is really just something to take note of, not to live by.... Fear is a soul-eater, too.
I've been doing some thinking about what it all means.... My life purpose, blah, blah, blah... I think that maybe it's not so tough to figure out. Maybe the answer is right in front of me. I just have to open my eyes to the possibility and the possibility will open it's eyes to me.
Here's looking at you, kid!
SO
2 comments:
It's a good thing we are adaptable because fear is a terrible thing, I'm more than familiar with it. Where are you registered for your self marriage? I hope you picked somewhere fantastic!
I should have a great answer to your question.
But I don't.
I think I must have forgotten to register anywhere, it being a shotgun wedding and all.
I may have been drugged.
Grim, I bear it.
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